I just wanted to post some lovely flowers to my grandmother who is now in heaven. She died recently at the age of 98, she fell and broke her tail bone.
It was stressful because up to the day of her death, many other family members kept saying, “Why won’t she die? Can’t she understand how much stress she’s causing all of us?!”
My grandmother used to walk me to school and back during kindergarten. I remember she made me sugar sandwiches. It was just toasted bread with sugar in between. It’s quite yummy. Though, I never eat them anymore.
When she spilled milk she would laugh. When I spilled milk, she would get mad at me. I always used to laugh about it.
She used to laugh watching barney. She was good at making beef jerky. Her hands and head shook because of parkinson’s disease and she had no teeth.
But she was so adorable gumming her food. She had this thing about saving resources. She gasped at using more than 3 squares of toilet paper roll. It caused a lot people stress.
She lived in America and had no friend. She could not speak english and people in my family wouldn’t talk to her. She was hard of hearing and you had to shout like you were angry for her to understand.
she couldn’t see well either. People in my family was always fighting and couldn’t understand why my grandmother was always angry and shouting.
The history between everyone went too deep within my family. All the love was dried up and gone.
She was a very traditional lady where men were to be honored and women were always wrong. She used to make my mother do laundry with her bare hands in the freezing winter in the river. After giving birth to her first child, she didn’t even give my mother some time to recover.
she had more than 10 sons but nobody wanted to take care of her. Her husband died earlier on. Our family was too poor with no room, although we wanted to take her in very bad.
On the day of her funeral, barely anyone showed up. It was so cold and I always felt sad. She always asked me about school and that was it.
She liked my egg side dish.
my parents both are very sick after traveling to and from South Korea to America all this time. My father lost his voice and my mother also lost her voice from stress.
Nobody in South Korea wanted to take care of her. I’m so angry, yet I can’t do anything.
Grandma, if you’re in heaven… I wanted to let you know that your granddaughter loves you very much. I thought the way you used to laugh watching barney was so funny. Thank you for giving birth to my father (the youngest out of the 10+ sons and daughters).
Such a strong women she was.
Rest in peace.